March...

So its March, it means the year end of my bank is coming (busy time with long working hours) and also year-end job performance review.

I know I shouldn't, but I am hoping for a raise and some bonus. Though I was not like the shinest star, but I think I work very hard to learn things. Though I did show my disinterest in this job, I feel that I work much harder than people who entered during the same period as me. I expect at least some raise.

There's been a lot of thoughts about selling my co-op apt here in Flushing and just fly to Japan, but the next question was, what am I gonna do after I come back? I seriously have no idea. Then I was thinking about selling it, and mortgage a condo and renting it out, so at least I have a back up. But then there come two problems of lacking of fund, and lacking of people who can monitor in the condo while I am gone...

So what am I gonna do?? It is really sucks to be an adult isn't it? Becoming an adult during the crisis is even worse. Becoming an adult with a child in his heart during the crisis is the worst. Becoming an adult with a child in his heart holding a dream of heading back to Japan during the crisis is just....deadly wrong!!

I got to talk to Kevin a few days ago, which was good... he seems like he is doing well, might go to Ghana for the summer.
Went to movie with Sean, Ashley, and a co worker of mine who came back from the JET... It is interesting that I was kinda creating a clique of people who have nippon-craze. We went to watch Tokyo! and talked a little about our experience in Japan. It seems like Ash is the only one like me, feeling trapped in the US and wanting to go to Japan everyday.

As of my personal life...I have been hanging out with this kid named Kenny, whom Nihiru has met when he was dating my ex-close-friend. Things can be as innocent as it seems, or it can be as complicated as peopel surrounding us think. We went to Niagra Fall together, hang out almost every weekend, doing shit like shopping for grocery, eating out, movies, then we signed up real estate classes together, then we went to Britney Spear concert together...(oh btw, Brit is so bad, I love her!!)
So sometime I do wonder if there's sth between us. Or it could be just a sense of companionship that I am enjoying. But all in all, he is the one who have been giving me all the light and pleasure in my life recently. Without him I would really feel so lonely and depressed.

So yea...that was a lil brief update of my life lately...