TWO UPCOMING MOVIES THAT I LOOK FORWARD

oya...guilty as plead..I am a chick

Smelly Cat

It's been 10 days after New Year, I have not gone out as much as I expected.  During xmas eve, I had to OT until 8 pm, during new year eve, I didn't leave office until 830...Is my job really really demanding? It is at some level, but how come everybody else left earlier than me? 

I think I have found my workaholic gene.... I just do not want to leave office sometime, despite the fact that I don't like this job.  I have to admit I have grown a lot as a person in the past six months working there. I learned a lot of corporate loans...learn about how destructive office politics can do to a company performance, and learn that how I can be a bitch and asshole at work when others were trying to be mean at me...

I will always remember the following anecdotes...

During the quarter end, I didn't have much time to have lunch...I ran to the cafeteria with my lunch box and planning to heat it up..then a coworker of mine sitting there eating some panini that he bought for 7 dollars downstair..

"Oh Ricky..why aren't you eating your lunch?" 

"No man..too busy... I want to finish my work as soon as I can..."

"But..you won't get paid for lunch...you know that right?"

"Yea...but I really have a lot of stuff to do...very busy."

"Everybody are busy..."

"Yea I know..."

"So why are you so retarded and work so slow? "

"...."

    At that moment, my easily-frustrating self told me to give him a nice big punch on his pathetic face, because I really had no idea how to give him a come back..but my modest asian self was like "whatever...leave it...drop it..."

So I turned around and just when I was about to walk away...I bursted out "you know, not everybody are as experienced as you, still working as an administrator at this operational department even when you have hit your 30's."  

I believe he got my offensive comment...because he said "Fuck you!" 

YES...Assholes...a common breed that is unique in their every own way.  I never knew how many of these creatures I needed to deal with.  More and more of them emerged to my face after my boss asked me to do a report update, which is an assignment usually assigned to the officers.  And I am just too tired to hear or see them opening their mouths.

 Just a few weeks ago, another co worker of mine gave me a phone call 

"Ricky, piece of advice, you need to mind your own 'queue' (it is like a to-do work pages).  Don't waste your time on the fucking report that the AVP asked you to update on daily."

Then..few days later...another co workers walked by...

"Oh wow...ricky, you are so hard working...you are updating the report? Why are you doing this report? you know, no one cares about your report..."

I admit I am an aggressive achiever at work, or in any field that I involve in.  This comes with a cost of being the target of jealousy in the midst of cubicle politic.  And man, why couldn't I be bitchier..

Nicole~ you are right, I am not mean enough~ teach me to be meaner!! So I can be more eligible for law school...hahaha 

so...

two more days to go before the christmas...four more days to go before my birthday...

Nope...don't feel any celebration spirit at all this year...too much shit happened in the family...to a point I do not even know how to respond.  Then too much shit at work...

Can't wait till Jan interview...then my feb LSAT...so I can finally decide where I will be heading next summer.

I was looking through some facebook pic of friend of friends...who is studying abroad at Waseda and partying every night at Arty Farty...O GOSH! it's so deja vu...!! He's like living the life that I once lived! Freakier part many of his album have the same titles or content that I have...lucky bitch...got to stay in Tokyo for a year...

 I serious miss partying...I sometime wonder if I have passed that age and will lose the capability to shake it off~ lol I hope not...this job can wear me out, but it can't take the rikki outta me! lol 

Anyway...thats it for now...will have more later

Got Book?

I am weird...

That's might not be adequate to describe who I am...

So I am weird and I hated Twilight...and I secretly dreamt about different fantasies based on twilight setting few nights after I watched that movie...

no...not enough to describe my anomaly

I am just too weird that I don't enjoy fiction and I love non-fiction. I love non-fiction that I sometime got teary eyes when  I was reading outlier...

Still not weird enough? 

Ok..the book that I am currently reading is the People's History of the United States...and today I imagined myself as a Aztec Indian sitting on NYC subway train and the English were pointing guns at me throughout my commuting ride to work...then I saw my boss Ho Chi Minh there...

PIC!

OK I take it all back...

Outliers' last two chapters were jaw dropping....too well written and I was actually touched, emotionally, at some point.

So I printed out some of the pictures us three took in Kansai area...and planning to put it in my cube...the reactions I predict to have from my co workers would be along the lines of

"AW~ ricky...which one is your girlfriend?"

"Ricky, I didn't know you dig white girls, whats wrong with spanish girls?" 

May be some guys will be saying stuff like this behind my back

"I tot he is gay!" 

Well...Nicole, since I dont want to reveal anything, I can't do what you did...lol 

I would just smile silently and let them spread whatever they believe.  Hope you and becky don't mind being my office rumor girlfriends....

The truth is...I do need some pictures of some happy moments I had~ so I wouldn't feel as bored at work...

Oh Ricky...6 more months I will be working for a year...

can you do it? can you do it? 

Gladwell, you disappointed me!!!

So, Malcolm Gladwell's new book, "Outlier: The Story of Success," WHAT'S THE BIG FUSS ABOUT IT?? I don't know, but I sure did get all excited when I first saw it came out.  His previous two books inspired me so much that made me changed my majors, but his current book just does not fit Gladwell's inspiring standard! I didn't get inspired, in fact, I might have gotten discouraged mid way thru the book. What he essentially did to me so far was reminding me how much I lack of to become "successful" (Though I don't really know how successful I want to be, or whether I want to be successful.) Regardless, it kinda teased me to feel like being in such conversation 

MG: "ooh, no, people with high predetermined IQ don't guarantee you to be an outlier"

Me: "So...you are saying I can be an outlier too? I mean...I've never thought of that..."

MG: "Well, yea, but meanwhile, there are other criterion too, like you should born in such and such year, such and such month, go to schools that is technologically pioneered, you can be Jews but you can also be Asian...

Me: "Oh~ ME ME!"

MG: "Well, ahem, but then you also need to have the time (and patience) the practice something for 10,000 hours, good at practical intelligent..."

Me: Practical intelligent? 

MG: Basically something that rich kids adapted, but the poor kids missed out when they grew up

Me: I m not rich nor poor, but I pretend to be both...

MG: And you have to have knowledge to read situation correctly,and get what you want, being social savvy, know what to say to whom in where at when, 

Me: But I am a socially awkard homo~ 

MG: ... Well, then, all in all, you just don't need to have good IQ to be successful...

Me: DUH!

ok...may be I am just criticizing it too soon since I am only at chapter 3...hahaha 

Nevertheless, this is a good book...it does keep me awake when I was commuting for an hour in the morning, and it made me looks relatively more intellectual than my surrounding passengers who were clicking their iPhones...Or not, they would think I am some loser thinking that I can gain some self-help by reading a book called "Out Liar: A story of Success" 

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Enough writing of my love/hate mixed feeling of Gladwell.  Back to why I was hoping for more inspiration from this book.  I think essentially I have been feeling that I have hard time interacting with the "real adults" at work.  And when Gladwell talks about practical intelligence, I was like "aw! now you just squeezed my heart." Then he went on and talking about how children learn these social knowledge when growing up..and I was like "OK! Mr. author, your words are shooting through my 23 years old heart..." The question is...am I too late to "grow?" 

Working in "real world" has became much more complicated than what I have expected. Back then I was told that I act so immature, so gay, so nice, so stupid, and people in the real world will EAT YOU UP! Then I was like "no...I have met so many awesome people...at school..." 

 Then here I am, working at the almost bottom level of the corporate caste system, the most selfish but selfless kind of all industries. (Selfish because each and all of us need to find ways to cover or shit or shift it over to others, selfless because you basically do not have your own time besides comimtting yourself at work five days a week, and leave the weekend to do your laundry, and worrying about what may happen on Monday) 

More importantly, I am working and dealing with the most diverse group of people...ever! Not to mention that about the races (outta 36 people in my dept, may be 3 I consider whites, if I could tell correctly that they are not hispanic white) There are 4 main languages being used there, Spanish, Chinese, Tagalog, and ghettohood accented English.  When I write "Good day, have a good night" in my email, they were like "Why are you being so polite? Don't write too much talk too much, you never know what you will get yourself into."  

So here is a brief rundown of the people I worked with:

1) Paranoid + racist fobbish middle aged Chinese ladies: They are one of the bitchy sharpest tongues in the lunch room.  (while the other is the young college kids, which I will advance more later).  They hold the cultural point of view that I was very familiar with since I grew up with two of these ladies (my mom and my god mom). I get along with them well not only because we speak the same language and I sometime can be kinda bitchy.  But also it is just fun to hear how they talking shit about people.  

"Those spanish people are just too poor.  We always bring in foods to share while all they do is eat and say thank, I never seen them bring back some food. "

" Yea yea...and that Russian always talk like he has not slept for thousand years. Must have drank too many vodkas. " 

" Oh yea, and that VP seriously stupid...Asking us to contribute 10 dollar for xmas party? Why doesn't she give us a rise first! Bitch." 

But when it comes to meeting, they are the most silent group of people...

2) Baby boomers techno unsavvyness: Most of my supervisors come from this group.  "How do you reverse what you did in Excel again?"

 "Ctrl-Z" 

"But...no...it doesnt work"

"you press CTRL and Z at the same time..." 

"Oh...."

They are slow in processing and analyzing works, but they are also the most careful people in my department.  Without them I think my department would sink...  They are patient and knowledgeable.  At the same time, they are sensitive to their seniority.  They do not like much when they are proven wrong, and they tend to be VERY stubborn and like to maintain their own working style, though they did not realize with the technology they can do the same thing with much faster pace. 

3) The whining and complaining college kids+Gen Y: YES, a numbers of the people I work with are still in college, just graduated like me, or been working there as their first/second job.  They do not take this job as serious as they may seem during the meeting.  Life always come first.  (which I do agree).  Some of them, especially the younger in age but senior in positions, are FUCKING stuck up! True, it is hard not to get impatient when facing with group of coworkers who are not as tech savvy.  But They feel that knowing so many things make the the stars at that department.  So time to time they will become the most annoying BRATS and giving you the nasties attitude, even to their supervisors and officers, just because they know that they are the next rising stars who actually know computer in this small dept.

4) Then, there are some people that I do admire.  Esp the smart and vocal middle aged women, mostly fillipino and hispanic.  They are diligent and intelligent.  They understand what they are doing.  Their outspokenness is perfect to deal with the whiny and over-confident kids, plus the insecured yet stubborn older cohorts.  Probably they are dealing with these two types of people at home as well.  I guess their only disadvantage is not being able to speak Chinese and been using soft power too much...

They need a Chinese fag...

Gladwell...teach me how to use the practical knowledge in this scenerio...NOW!! 

well...may be in your next book...I would still buy it...lol